Silence. An empty air.
A sound you’re probably familiar with. But maybe not comfortable with.
Sometimes you hear it (or rather, don’t hear anything) in an awkward moment. Maybe you have asked someone a tough question, and the room is silent. Maybe somebody has told a joke that sounded a lot funnier in their head.
It’s the worst.
Silence is hard to work with.
Last week I had a 3 o’clock appointment with an advisor. I showed up respectably early to sign in, about 2:50 pm.
“Thank you for checking in Joe, Mr. Harrison will be right with you. You can take a seat.”
I picked a chair in the corner that looked comfortable to patiently wait for my meeting.
A solid 4 and half seconds go by before I was utterly bored out of my mind, so I grabbed my phone from my pocket.
Shoot. It’s not in my pocket. Left it at home.
I look around.
The horror sets in.
I am in the most boring waiting room in America. No phone. No book. Still 9 minutes and 50 seconds to go until my meeting. I might not make it. I might just keel over right now.
Don’t worry, this isn’t a blog about how we are all completely addicted to our phones (but hey, are you?). And I won’t try to convince you social media is Satan’s latest and greatest attempt (but hey, does he use it against you?).
This is about you and silence.
We are very good at stimulating our interaction-hungry brains. Phones really have served as a constant distraction. Yes, a distraction. Phones are a great tool for communication, organization, learning, and even for fun. But how often do we look to it just because there isn’t something else to look at? Have you ever pulled your phone out of your pocket to “check the time,” and then someone asks you what time it is, and you have no idea? I definitely have.
Prayer. Everyone’s personal relationship with God.
I don’t know about y’all, but God doesn’t really communicate with me as He did in biblical passages – thundering clouds or opening heavens.
He makes Himself known to me in the silence of prayer. But let’s be real, holy smokes, how hard is that? To sit quietly in a church (without your phone) and not think about the other 437 things you need to and want to do today. Or even think about dumb stuff.
“Hey God, thank you for today and my family. I really need your help today with — oh wow look at these little mini pencils in the pews! Where do these come from? Does the church take normal sized pencils and cut them in half and then sharpen them? Then how come none of them have erasers? ….”
Perhaps if I got better at sitting in silence throughout parts of my day (like in the waiting room, or on the bus, or in line at Dunkin) without my phone or distraction… maybe I could grow. I could improve myself and be okay with and more comfortable in silence. Just like I have gotten better at calculus and ultimate frisbee, I can get better at being calm in silence.
This is something I am working on little by little every day, and I can already begin to see how it is affecting my prayer life. I can be silent in the church and give God the chance to speak to me.
Where is your attention? Where do you want it to be? …Who do you want it to be with?
Chirp-Chirp……… Hey God.